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Little things mean a lot

There is definitely a certain truth to the notion that the little things in life can mean a great deal in the moment.

First eye and dental checkup since HRT

So this week had a few other types of medical appointments and each, of course, will lead to a conversation that I have, in all honesty, been waiting to have.

Reflecting on National Coming Out Day

Today is "National Coming Out Day" to support LGBTQ+ people in coming out of the closet and celebrating their true selves with friends and family. It is the ideal, that it is a celebration, but that this day exists says we have much to do still.

T-Shirts and Musings

A quiet autumn afternoon is a fine time to break out my Cricut, Easy Press, and make a couple of t-shirts and contemplate life a little.

I won't drink to that

I hit a major milestone this week, one that isn't specifically about my transition, but is definitely related to it and I am super excited because of it! Enough that I won't drink to it...

Why now?

I am 52 years old and a question that arises with respect to my transition is: why now?

It's never too late

The other day, the question got asked on Twitter: "Did anyone else find the Monty Python's Lumberjack song..... problematic?" The question got me thinking about media, trans representation, and what it was like as a child of the 70s and being trans.

Brr... and other things you may want to know

So, there is a lot of information out there about HRT, but most of it is quite clinical and deals with subjects like dosage amounts, expected effects, and rough timelines... then there is what you didn't really know and wished someone told you.

A journal a day...

Getting in touch with your thoughts, your emotions, and even your fears is, I think, a really important part of your transition. More importantly, as I am coming to realize, recording them is even more valuable.

Don't feed the trolls

suffix: -phobia
extreme or irrational fear or dislike of a specified thing or group.

Voice Dysphoria

HRT can do many wondrous things for me, from helping to shape the body I want, to helping me feel at peace with myself. Unfortunately, it cannot change my voice...

Time for Relection - Learnings One Month In

I am about to start month 2 of my HRT journey and now is as good a time as any to describe what I have seen, felt, and experienced in that first month and what I am thinking about as I head into my second month.

Echoing Voices

Was thinking about social media today... notably Twitter and how it amplifies certain voices well beyond their true reach.

Turn the Page

Want to know something weird? I've had the song, Turn the Page, by Bob Seger stuck in my head all week.

Big day!

There wasn't a drum roll or a town crier making an announcement, but today was a mighty big day for me...

Pride 2020

It's Pride today.

New Kicks!

So Adidas has these super cute Transgender Pride sneakers that I just had to get...

Busy day!

What a busy, busy day today! So, got into the clinic today to get the blood work done in prep for HRT and it turned into a bit of an adventure...

That was really positive!

So, fears for nothing, my phone meeting with my new doctor was amazingly positive!

A Little Disappointed and Recent Thoughts

I was looking forward to tomorrow, finally my first appointment to see a doctor to discuss HRT and, well, it's by phone. 😞

A Month Away!

In one short month I will be seeing a doctor, for the first time, to discuss HRT options. What a journey to get to this point and, yes, I am nervous.

Dysphoria and a means to an end

Who do you see in the mirror? Who do you want to see?

Memories

I took a trip down memory lane yesterday and it's rather surprising what pops to the surface over that time...

Dreams

Last week I commented that I wasn't really feeling much in the way of personal anxiety with respect to the virus outbreak, but it turns out that my dreams may be telling me something...

Anxiety and Comfort Zones - Visit 4

Dance like nobody is watching... That's basically advice around what may be your comfort zone and anxiety talking, so how do you dance like nobody is watching when they are, in fact, watching?

#TransInFashion day on Twitter

So today is #TransInFashion day on Twitter. What is it? It's an idea cooked up by Dr. Emmy Zje as a way to help us all combat the blahs from being inside and to give us a reason to jazz it up a bit.

Nail experiments

So, I'm not yet at a stage where I'm going to go to work, virtually or otherwise, with a beautiful gel manicure. Hopefully not all that far away, but not today. So, is there an option for me in the meanwhile?

What's another 3 months? Plus visit 3.

I finally managed to get a Doctor's appointment to discuss HRT: three months from now! 😳

I will survive

Gloria Gaynor washing her hands to "I will Survive" just popped up on Twitter yesterday and I was reminded again just how much I love her voice and this song.

My second visit

So, today was my second visit to see my therapist and I still wasn't sure what to expect. However, what I didn't feel was anxious.

Sometimes I'm so angry

I emotion bottle way more than I thought I did and it seems to be more obvious to me these days than it ever used to be.

Cranking open the closet door

I sometimes sit and wonder where life's journey has taken me and where it might be taking me next.

Steps

On Sunday, I hit the send button on an email that I've waited my whole life to send. It was scary, but important, but not yet the really big email, just the first step.

Doubtless

Sometimes the best way to address your doubts and fears to get back on the horse and try again. So I did. 😍

Doubts and Fears

Doubts, fears, concerns, worries... we all have them. Sometimes they paralyze you, sometimes they don't. Today, I let them stop me. 😥